So, I'm Alive

yeah, i know you care, admit it. even though you just searched for this. hell, i don't think anybody would put that in their blog.

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If you've been following me on Twitter (which I know you're not) or at least noticed my Twitter badge, you might have seen this last Saturday:

Mark this twit: its the beginning of the end.

Yeah, so there's a missing apostrophe, but that was thru text so forgive me punctuation police.

The end of what?

The end of blindly believing in this classic song:

Especially when that "love" is passive.

The "love" does not care.

The "love" makes excuses.

And the "love" can exist without you.

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I used to believe that the hardships and trials and temptations a couple goes through will strengthen them. That they will hold on to each other for dear life, scared that they will lose sight of each other.

But it can also mean taking each other for granted (how can they lose each other after all they've been through?). And then having separate lives (he/she will understand). Then waking up to realize nobody cares anymore, or that nobody should care anymore (but he/she will/should never leave me).

But hey, as long as they're still together right?

:(

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Forgive me, oh one dear faithful reader.

My head is a blur. My heart is in turmoil.

And I really don't want to put any harsh details in here. It's too fresh and too confusing, and I haven't had a heart-to-heart talk with myself yet. (Try it! Talking to yourself is a refreshing way to sort out your probs hahaha)

I just wanted to let you know I'm alive.

And still breathing.

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Thank you to my two wonderful angels last weekend. I wouldn't know what I would've done without you :)

Drei, thank you for listening to my mindless babble yesterday. I was literally going out of my mind already.

Richmonde Hotel, thank you for your hospitality.

To my family, thank you *bow*

Darice, we had a great adventure this weekend noh? :)

Dar, we need to talk....